2 Steps Back..
Through recent events I’ve become bothered by 3 major things.
1. My Wacky Phobias
2. Tolerating LIES…
3. Forwards
Over the years I’ve developed so many phobias - phobia of the dark, phobia of ghosts, phobia of flying, phobia of being sick - AYA!
There was a stage my phobias were affecting my way of living, I could not drive home at night without my high beam on or without being escorted by my bf. I was so scared of the dark at one stage I slept for an entire 6 months with my lights on. Lets talk about my fear of flying, everytime I travel overseas I have not experience one time of a happy flight, it starts in the airport - my knees starts to get weak, then moment I step into a plane my panic attacks go berserk, I get all sweaty, my heart palpitates, I cry and yell when there is turbulence. The ratio of me being comforted by a stewardess is 1:2. How about feeling sick, I stayed in the hospital for like 3 days once trying to convince the doctor I was sick..I have been trying to conquer these phobias for the last year or so, and each time I am faced with one I take 2 steps back..I’ve had to face these fears head on just to keep my sanity in check.. It bothers me whenever one tries to creep into my normal life and whenever one gets close I reaffirm by saying - Feel the Fear But do It anyway!
Second..
Sure once in a while everyone is forced in to saying a white lie, and we usually know when one lies through their body language - pyschologists says you know when one lies when they look to the left when they are saying a lie.. But when does it get intolerable. I guess when you feel helpless and your tolerance level hits a brick wall. I’ve heard some strange lies over the years and most of the times I just nod and say yes, ok, oh really…But I’ve learnt from the wise that tolerating lies can make the condition of compulsive liers worse..I hate being lied to, even if its a white lie..The worse thing a person can do to me is lie, I could never live it down! I guess there are heaps of reasons why people lie, to deceive purposely, to void their insecurity, jealousy, to refrain from hurting someone, the list goes on and on..I cry out to these people who have this terrible condition, I want to help them and reach out and tell them that its not them its the behaviour..But I feel so helpless, I hate knowing that while they lie and get caught out over and over that there are people who are just gaining from their made up world.
Forwards, I receive atleast 50 a day and usually I don’t even bother as I have no time to read them, but last week a forward entitled - Hate Letter caught my attention. It’s about this Mr. Bell from America expressing how he hates pinoys..There were heaps of things he said that I disagree with but funny thing is there are so many truth also in what he is saying…Let us pose ourselves with these questions - Why is it that we don’t have strips of pinoy restaurants here in melb? Why is it that we call ourselves the only Christian nation in asia but we don’t stop hearing of family feud, jealousy, and unending gossips trying to ruin each other? Why are we engrossed with the notion that we are the best amongst everyone else? Maybe once we’ve answered these questions then can we fully defend ourselves to MR. Bell.
Good Nyt !
Through recent events I’ve become bothered by 3 major things.
1. My Wacky Phobias
2. Tolerating LIES…
3. Forwards
Over the years I’ve developed so many phobias - phobia of the dark, phobia of ghosts, phobia of flying, phobia of being sick - AYA!
There was a stage my phobias were affecting my way of living, I could not drive home at night without my high beam on or without being escorted by my bf. I was so scared of the dark at one stage I slept for an entire 6 months with my lights on. Lets talk about my fear of flying, everytime I travel overseas I have not experience one time of a happy flight, it starts in the airport - my knees starts to get weak, then moment I step into a plane my panic attacks go berserk, I get all sweaty, my heart palpitates, I cry and yell when there is turbulence. The ratio of me being comforted by a stewardess is 1:2. How about feeling sick, I stayed in the hospital for like 3 days once trying to convince the doctor I was sick..I have been trying to conquer these phobias for the last year or so, and each time I am faced with one I take 2 steps back..I’ve had to face these fears head on just to keep my sanity in check.. It bothers me whenever one tries to creep into my normal life and whenever one gets close I reaffirm by saying - Feel the Fear But do It anyway!
Second..
Sure once in a while everyone is forced in to saying a white lie, and we usually know when one lies through their body language - pyschologists says you know when one lies when they look to the left when they are saying a lie.. But when does it get intolerable. I guess when you feel helpless and your tolerance level hits a brick wall. I’ve heard some strange lies over the years and most of the times I just nod and say yes, ok, oh really…But I’ve learnt from the wise that tolerating lies can make the condition of compulsive liers worse..I hate being lied to, even if its a white lie..The worse thing a person can do to me is lie, I could never live it down! I guess there are heaps of reasons why people lie, to deceive purposely, to void their insecurity, jealousy, to refrain from hurting someone, the list goes on and on..I cry out to these people who have this terrible condition, I want to help them and reach out and tell them that its not them its the behaviour..But I feel so helpless, I hate knowing that while they lie and get caught out over and over that there are people who are just gaining from their made up world.
Forwards, I receive atleast 50 a day and usually I don’t even bother as I have no time to read them, but last week a forward entitled - Hate Letter caught my attention. It’s about this Mr. Bell from America expressing how he hates pinoys..There were heaps of things he said that I disagree with but funny thing is there are so many truth also in what he is saying…Let us pose ourselves with these questions - Why is it that we don’t have strips of pinoy restaurants here in melb? Why is it that we call ourselves the only Christian nation in asia but we don’t stop hearing of family feud, jealousy, and unending gossips trying to ruin each other? Why are we engrossed with the notion that we are the best amongst everyone else? Maybe once we’ve answered these questions then can we fully defend ourselves to MR. Bell.
Good Nyt !
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