Vows

Here’s the vows I read during my christian wedding..

Jay, growing up, the only ‘knowledge of love I had was love from a family’.  Little did I know or was prepared for a love that is tarnished with war one must endure. I still recall the day you came into my life, it was the beginning that would enlighten me to what love should truly mean. Love is not of blind faith, it is not perfect, it is not without its flaws, it is not without its moments, it is not earned but given…in loving you; I’ve learnt not to love in convenience, but adversity. With you, I have learnt that love is of constant change, of never giving up, of continuity of finding yourself and complimenting another. Through you, I have experience love against all odds, love that can conquer any stormy weather, any forging battles and any other dark forces that threaten. In loving you, I have become a stronger person, a person more certain of herself, who does not claim to have perfect love, but only true love that has withstood the test of times. Today marks forever, I will be your shoulder to cry on in times of despair, I will be your companion to share the beautiful moments that life may bring, I will be the mother to bare your children, and the best friend you will grow old with.  I have loved you for the longest time; my love for you will never die.

Diversion

Diversion is a word as simple as it reads but as complicated as its name suggests! It has served as a form of escapism from my daily grinds. It is not without conscience but a knowing that it is a charitable nudge in the brain, one that tickles the senses..It is generous, inviting and exciting..It will distract you from routine, will keep you sane, make you smile a little. It bridges the gap between your days, hours and seconds. Phew my world would be so damn empty without it.   

Eye Contact..

"Stolen glimpses accross the room, she’s watching, not looking, what could she be thinking? Thoughts ran pass her, I see a smile, a confused smile, has she noticed? Was I obvious? Get occupied. Refocus, don’t wander, don’t look, snap out of it! Am i near? Is she close? Can she feel my soul distracted? Step away, stare outside, faraway, blank expressions.  Reading her mind, she’s not looking, what are you thinking? Walking away, out the door, bidding farewell, see you another day".
..and YES, I am watching…

Fizz Me Out

Life ran out of fizz towards the end of 06, no 6am starts, no phone calls ringing in my ear, no sleep deprivation, no balancing numbers, no meetings, no complaining, no deadlines, no phone tags with MR Peter Martin, no dealing with incompetent draftsman, no daily bootcamp, no nothing! If only I could run out of fizz at month end, my life would just be swell.
Its all just in my vivid imagination now, it didn’t take too much time for life to regain some unwanted momentum. Now stepping into battle ground mode, not a bloody war, but a tiresome circle of cliche one must endure to be a mere statistic, rather mainstream.
The year of the pig posses a great challenge for my little soul, I’ve just moved on to yes another role, and don’t ask how many positions i’ve held in the last 5 years. Well, if you insist, this is my 7th. What can I say I get bored easily. The more experience, the more vaIue, so I say show me  the money!!!
There’s the long distance wedding to arrange, 8 month’s 2 go and counting, I’m not an anal person, but this whole planning thing is driving me bananas, it’s turning me in to a Bridezilla. Everynight I come home, my father would discuss with me the ‘wedding plans’, not that I really have one, I just pretend I do. It saves me from my parents deadly lectures. ‘Lets count the ninongs and ninangs’, my papa would say, and in my mind i’ll be like, Geewiz not again! How many times must we endure this pain  of revising and recounting! I knew It would’ve been easier to just elope. It’s not yet too late is it? I’ll ask myself same question next week. I hope i’m not getting the wedding jitters again - someone help me! (LOL).
Another major activity that will be occupying our time this yr (I’m forecasting 70%) is finally building our HOME. I’ve just about had it with this building business, so many dramas and it’s not in the implementation stage yet. I’ve had shouting matches, numerous escalations, negotiations, adjustments after adjustments and the list just go on. I just hope that at the end of it all, I can find a way to quietly fizz myself out (fingers crossed).

Wedding Bloopers

Last Sun, I attended my best friends wedding, what a grand and beautiful wedding it was. The bride looked absolutely ravishing, the Groom looked equally handsome. The church was set up beautifully with fresh orchid pieces lined up tall along the aisle, there were a four piece quartets playing in the background, and a well dressed up crowd. The reception venue was just spectacular, it was fit for royalty. It was a solemn peaceful dream wedding, exquisite in every scale, one that you’d really wished for.

I’ll just comment on 3 highlights that really stuck to my head.

1. Sounds of Bliss

There we were, the bridal party all lined up symmetrically at the front of the altar, along with the groom we patiently waited for the bride to walk gracefully down the aisle. Then there was this eerie sound we heard from the back, it was so loud, a whaling sound that echoed the room, the sound travelled back and forth. Sideways, up & down like a soccer ball being bounce diagonally across a soccer field. I seriously thought, oh my, we’re about to experience a J

JERICHO
(figurely speaking that is). My eyes widened like I was about to be shot in the head by a spear, but then…quietness surrounded the room. It was like climax that hit to a halt…no more whaling sound, just a picture of the bride walking arm and arm with her mom and dad, sigh - such a moving sight. I don’t think anyone could ever forget this moment, well not the sound of bliss anyway

2. Ditched

As the maid of honour I had a million things on my mind that day, one of them were, has the band eaten? How’s the bride’s dress holding up? Are we on time according to the running sheet? Oh my God my speech? These items were mapped out in my brain, nagging me at every chance it gets. The last thing on my mind was performing a bridal waltz! Then we were called, ‘Bridal Party, please join the couple for the bridal waltz’ AYA, they must be joking right, WRONG. I was last to step down. Let’s get this done as quickly as possible I thought. Well, I was partnered up with the Best Man, the groom’s Bro, for privacy reasons let me hide his name by Mr. Suave. Well, Mr. Suave was yes a bachelor, quite good looking, and all that Jazz. He suggested salsa moves, and I said ‘AA’, as a big NO. Then, just as the song slowly was fading, like a speedy Gonzalez, I said, got to go and ran out of dance floor. It didn’t occur to me that the bridal waltz have not yet finished, I have just left Mr. Suave confused in the dance floor. Bewildered on what to do next, shall he dance by himself, join another couple, walk away. Believe you me this was a funny sight – sorry Mr. Suave.

So to any bachelors attending a wedding – Please always expect the unexpected.

3. Wardrobe Malfunction.

For some unexplained reason, I always avoid trying out a dress before a big occasion. Maybe it is the fear of the dress not fitting properly, which says crash diet, or maybe it’s a simple case of getting a surprise. For whatever it is, I cannot get into that dress!! Well at the wedding, did I get a big SURPRISE! The top half of my outfit seems to keep getting lower and lower, I had to adjust every 2 minutes otherwise I’ll have my whole swollen breast exposed for the whole world to see. It always happens to me, but I never learn my damn lesson, maybe its time to get a breast reduction – NOT! I’ve looked at a half a dozen pics from the night, and all I can see is my tits appear to be hanging out one way or the other. Talk about wardrobe malfunction, thank God for the delete function in digital cameras, they seem to save my day AYA!

Tip for me – Like chocolate, got to try before you buy!

That’s all from me folks.

Happy J

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Blissfully Draining

I think I maybe experiencing a post EP hangover…The whole event just took so much out of me. As fun as it was, I must say that the experience I found to be most blissfully draining. It was just a small occassion to celebrate me saying ÝES’ finally. We had a blast that whole day, the getting ready part was hillarious. It took me less than 15 minutes to get my make up and my outfit on. We had our family and our closest friends there which made it all special to the both of us. The venue we choose made it all so worth the night, it was so glamorous. I loved the art deco mirrors, the funky chandelier and the marble bar. It was totally everything I imagined and more. I was a little unsure how the filo side was going to take the whole cocktail business, but I think I swayed most of them, my side anyway that it is a fantastic way to hold a party. It wasn’t the usual sit down, stay where you are thing. The night was more layed back, more of a let your hair down and kick your heels kinda show. Jay and I were ran off our feet the whole night, we were doing the whole 360 degree entertaining, it was so much fun, but oh so tiring. I wanted to show a Music Video Presso but settled for an Audio Visual instead, a last minute maneuver. It turned out cool, thanks to my beautiful girls in london who sent me something to add to our AVP and ofcourse thanks to our so funky photographer who took our prenup pics the week before. Our photographer ‘JOE’ was totally awesome, he stayed for the whole entire event up to 3am back in our hotel. The most memorable part of the evening has to be Jay’s speech, I was like OMG he must be drunk. He repeated cliche about 100 times, but I give him credit for delivering a most heartfelt speech. Thanks BABA. There were so many people to thank that night, we never got the chance to. Jay & I feel so blessed for having very good friends, all of them had a part in the lead up and the main event. Thanks all, you know who you all are..We are so glad we have a whole year to plan for the actual BIG DAY otherwise I don’t think i’ll have the energy to do anymore stressful planning.

AJA

I am a serial telenovela addict and I’m proud of it! It serves like a caffeine fix for me, I cannot get by without watching the next install. Quite recently, I’ve embarked on a new quest to finding out why Koreanovelas are getting so many ppl I know hooked. Then I remembered Paris, oui madamoiselle. At that instant I entered the world of Taeyoung, Kijoo and Soohyuk, a love triangle. Quite a complicated one between a boyish, never say die girl, a rich, grumpy, rigid man and a spunky, free spirited drummer. After a 3 day marathon of being glued to my lap top not shifting focus as each episode rolled in. I am asking the same question I once asked myself, WHY Taeyoung? Why do bad guys seemed to always get in front of the good ones? I’ve had 8 hours sleep in 3 days but each 9min or so episode is worth all my sacrifice. I’ve just finished Ep12 part1 the best part yet, I cried, pondered, screamed, waved my hands. Soohyuk can I catch your pain? His cheeky smile has faded slowly and in this episode it vanished forever! AJA as Taeyoung would say, bring on part2, I’m coming for you. Long Live Korea - AJA!